no more passion to continue!!is harder den i tot!!

Oooppppss!!seems lk evrythin din wen as wat I tot!!!boring,sienz n tired at de same time..wat happen!!
Haihz I been tryin to online but de window live jux don’t accept me!!24th of January 2007 is de worst day ever in my academic history n seems lik de worst worst is yet to come…de result day I guess n oso 2 more paper to go..
I really cant figure it out why…even it was last minutes study but it never been in tis way b4.to b frank I been last minutes study for de whole life..every exam no matter from upsr,pmr or spm or even last sem..n of coz tis sem as well!!but tis sem 2 in tar college is so different.i noe for myself I been studying very very hard,tryin to understand evry details n finish up evry chapter..
N for ytd paper quantitative studies..i really study de whole thing n understand it but at de moment I open de question paper..sudd seems lik my mind went blackout..
Totally nth in my brain..haihz..dat moment I oli fell lethargic,tired n lack of concentration..
I spent a lot of time tinkin which question to pick n how to do it!!n great at de end I found it den I noe myself noe how to do tis.. dat question is jux a piece of cake but sumhow I forgot de most simple steps which was which figure supposed to add wit which figure..damm it.. I m lik in de hell!!ok den de nex question..hw can I forgot de stupid lame formulae dat I been memorizing for de whole nite ESij =EC j
I guess is tis one ..as long as I rmb one I can get de other formulae oh!!shitty for tis question ..den to de graph part!!dat was worst..luck was nt on my side..
De graph doesn’t work n den another free 10 marks which was de lapyres question I din manage to do it..
Wat happened to me dat day..was really I a piece of shit..y I spent super long time tinkin bout de hard question n forgot de easy one..i guessed I oli manage to finish up half of de paper..
Datz so not me!!aft de paper finish..i check it wit my notes..walao I duneven wan to check it any more al was careless miastakes n de formulae is wrong..i dun even hav de courage to chech de others questions..
Fail fail fail fail wil come to my life!!!omg
Dunno wat had gone into my mind tis sem..
So not me..haihz last time wenever I do my exam paper writtting evry bits of answer inside.. I felt de confident but now wat I was oopss disappointment no matter how hard I study but I still wil forget it o mix it up!!
At de end of de day..i din manage to do well in de paper!!!while doin dat qs paper I fell lik cryin,hope dat time can turn bac..let me refresh a bit,,,wanted to run out of de exam hall so much n pray dat evrythin can start over again..
Wat happen..right now I fell lik I jux broke up wit my confident,my strings of a’s n my scholarship n ya not to forget my brain..
I had lost my brain…wuwuuwuwu
I really wonder wat is de factor behind al tis..
Izzit bcoz of too many play make ANG a dull n stupid ,super dummy gal..i really dunno..
Or did I had so much fun tis sem.. god decide to take bac sumthin in xchange wit de happiness dat I get!!
N rite nw is de time 4 me to suffer…I really hope dat tis lame piece of stupid n crap exam wil end..
I wan my stressfree n happie moment bac!!very tired..
Can I still bac to the track n continue de nex 2 paper???
Wil it b better???
wil I b de confident me bac?
Wil study hard really works?
I never been tis stress for one exam!!wuwuw..
Ya..not to forget sorry to ben n yee..wen I m too emotional,I m very unreasonable at de same time..
N thanx 4 supporting me!!however ben ,4 de things u said I really cant obsorb it now..haihz!!!!